Our guest post this morning comes from Jennifer Yzbick. Let's take a few minute to consider WHO God is and how that should affect our lives today!

"Cease striving and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations." Ps. 46:10

"Sing to the Lord a new song for He has done wonderful things, His right hand and His holy arm have gained the victory for Him." Ps. 98:1

"Exalt the Lord our God and worship at His footstool. Holy is He." Ps. 99:5

I am so short sighted. I don't know how I continually walk the same path, but I do. I sing, I rejoice, I give thanks to the Lord. I rejoice in all that he has done and I am filled to overflowing. I repent and weep, I am overcome with emotion and humbled. I lay prostrate before Him.

Then, evening comes.

My children scream and refuse to nap, my husband forgets to take out the trash, dinner i bland and burnt, my phone overflows with teenage girl problems of doubt and worry, yet another person wants to come over before bedtime, and I am ready to scream. what began as a joyful, Spirit-filled day ended tired and defeated because somewhere in the midst of it all I became god.

HE is to be feared.

HE is to be praised.

HE is above all peoples,all nations, all gods.

HE can do all things.

HE, HE, HE . . .

Somewhere, somehow, I began to carry a burden not mine to carry. I took on responsibility that was not mine. In the course of the day I began to believe that my children's behavior meant I was failing as a mother and teacher. My husband's forgetfulness something else that I had failed to remedy. My lack of culinary skills just more proof of my deficiency. Others' spiritual success was clearly mine to mold and shape. And so, I end the day defeated and lacking joy. Angry with myself and frustrated with God.

Then, as I reflected on the day and this cycle of success and failure, I realized the faulty logic that led to this defeat. When others in my sphere of influence fail, I take it as my own fault and failure. Now wait a second . . . somehow I believed that I was responsible for my behavior, my husband's behavior, my children's behavior, and my disciple's behavior. Well, if that is the case ... I must be God.

Wow, I had to pause for a while to let this truly sink in.

Here I was, a missionary and church planter in a foreign land. Those back home would probably classify me as humble and with a servant heart. I am sure in the eyes of many, I am a super-Christian . . . and sometimes I believe it myself. So imagine my surprise when I realized that my faulty theology left me trying to play God. Not so humble any way you cut it.

How did this happen? And how did this happen so quickly?

As I wrestled with God a bit on this I realized a few things:

1) I had a small view of God.

2) I stopped being thankful.

3) I failed to worship.

My small view of God led to an aggrandized view of myself. As I stopped focusing on His power and might, I stopped being thankful. In ceasing to thank God, I began to believe I was responsible for the good and the bad that was happening around me, and so I ceased to worship.

That's it folks. Sad but true.

So where does that leave me? Where does that leave us? (Because I don't think I am the only one who steps into this cycle.)

1) Put God in His rightful place. God is bigger and greater and more awesome than anything and anyone we can possibly imagine. We need to stop having such a small view of god. He is able. Whatever the situation, the problem, the pain, HE IS ABLE.

2) Repent. Wanting to be god is no small thing. Repent, acknowledging our pride and trust that He is faithful and will forgive. He is so gracious.

3) Reflecting on God's bigness, power and forgiveness, choose to worship Him. Sing to the Lord, worship His holy name, thank Him and praise Him because no matter the season or storm, HE IS GOD.

We may be tempted to step into this cycle again. Let us remember to praise Him, let us be sober in Spirit and ask that He would reveal to us when we are trying to play god. Let us also encourage each other as we learn to walk by the Spirit. There are no super-Christians, but there is one SUPER God.

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